Why Having No Internet is Killing Me -- It' Not the Reason You Think

I currently don't have internet access in my apartment, we are waiting for the cable guy to come and set it up this Friday. We had to switch internet providers because our speed was below 1mbps. If you don't know what that means just imagine that you can watch about 3 minutes of Netflix at a time, having to restart your WiiU everytime it stopped. Argh! It was unbearable, trust me, I couldn't watch even our lectures online without having them load for a few hours. But that's all over now-we will be getting a brand new internet provider soon, and better speeds *knocks on wood*.

I just have to survive this period of no internet, and soon my hell will be over. And let me tell you, it has been hell, but not for the reason you probably think it was.

First let me say that I have been out of internet since April 7th, so that was last week. Hence why my blog last week was early (well that and the fact I wasn't feeling good at all, eh, minor). I don't have enough cellular data to last me that long to do everything I want to do (online, as I'm not a hermit) AND do homework--so I had to cut back on a lot of things I liked to do.

One of those things was something I have had with me all my life, something I hadn't really thought about having needed until last week.

My Music

I don't have any CDs anymore, or even an iPod (or at least one with regular music. Mine has Christmas Music Only). So I usually listen to my Pandora Radio--all the time. Which I'm sure my neighbors hate, sorry by the way! I listen to it when I'm walking, in the car, on the bus, in my house, sitting outside, anywhere and everywhere I can listen to my music; I do. And here's why.

My. Brain. Won't. Shut. Up.

In 2004 or 2005 I was diagnosed with ADHD or Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder. If you ever have the chance to see me in a classroom you will notice I take notes like a maniac, and there's a reason for that. I have to constantly take notes or I lose focus. My music is very much the same way, it gives me a peace of mine at home. It keeps me focused on relaxing, which may be a confusing statement to hear. DON'T THINK OF A MOUSE. Are you thinking of a mouse? Most likely you are, that's a very normal reaction. Your brain instantly focuses on that mouse, you won't stop thinking of that mouse until you forget about it. 

Now imagine you brain didn't read that sentence, but that that thought came out of no where, while you were relaxing, or trying to sleep, or working. That that thought was so powerful you could no longer concentrate on what else was happening. And then a different thought comes in. And another, and another, and another. It's a constant wheel of thoughts that never stops, and you're exhausted and just wanted to relax but can't stop thinking. You're thinking of all these thoughts at the same time, and you don't know how to stop.

Music can often block out other thoughts, even just temporarily. For me, music works wonders. For others is a distraction, which is why I use headphones; I don't want to disturb others peace.

All in all I'm excited to get my internet connection back, to get my music back, and to hopefully get some relaxation this coming week!

What helps keep you focused?

Again please note I am not a doctor. If you have real concerns please see your doctor right away. If this is an emergency please call 911, or your local emergency hotline.